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Persona 4, the cut scene

Hooked up the PS2 yesterday to try it. I like it so far, though the first hour or so is pretty much a cut scene. Or “RPG on rails” even, where there’s no real choice about anything. The first two hours, really. Actually, it still hasn’t opened up yet entirely, but I do get to shop a little, which is nice.

I think if they’d released it for (say) the Wii with little or no modification it’d be a contender for game of the year (and not win). If you’re into Japanese-style RPGs, it’ll be one of the best games ever.

The funny thing though is that it has game mechanics that are incomprehensible to me, and I’ve been playing games pretty much continuously since Asteroids on the Atari 2600. There were whole sections of exposition where something would be explained to me and I’d just start laughing. At one point, after an entirely nonsensical jargon-filled little speech, I had a dialogue choice between “I understand” and “Can you go over that again?”

I wanted to be able to pick “Whatever, I’ll just go look on the Internet for better documentation.”

I’m worried that my cavalier attitude will end up ruining the game for me: I’ll find some level boss two-thirds of the way in that can only be beaten if I’ve cross-fused the right trio of spirit personas or whatever. More than one game’s been tossed aside only to find out later that it’s the collectible-card mini-game I hated that could have earned the armor that lets you finish the game.

Way back in the lizard brain

It’s snowing in Seattle again. I work on the 15th* floor of my building, which has a decent view (of Bellevue!).

Today, I came around a corner to our little “neighborhood” of EU people and outside the snow fell upwards. And kept falling up.

And while rationally I thought “sure, there’s some weird wind thing going on” I also felt, deep inside, that I was dreaming or the world had come unhinged.

* not actually the 15th, as there’s no 13th

Literally now means metaphorically

… and actual means I don’t know what.

However, on her fifth studio album, Middle Cyclone, she literally becomes a force of nature: Case sings opener “This Tornado Loves You” from the point of view of an actual tornado, tearing up trailer parks and cutting a 65-mile swath in search for its beloved: “I carved your name across three counties,” she sings defiantly as the guitars whip around her and the snare patters frantically, suggesting destruction can be a demonstration of love.

Stephen M. Deusner

Shouldn’t Pitchfork, as the indier-than-thou center of the music universe, be awash in English major editors who get all twitchy at this stuff?

Two bosses

I’ve worked for two people in my career that I’d say I’m absolutely loyal to. I use one analogy a lot to describe the standard: if they called me up and said “I need you to go the 20th floor and jump off the balcony” would I do it?

And when I say that, I’m kind of joking that they’d have arranged a water slide or a net or a helicopter rescue or whatever, but I’m also… I’m kind of not really joking at all.

I’ll tell a story here about the first, and how it connects to the second. When I worked at Expedia’s LuxTech division, building ccv.com and other fine work, about a year and a half in the new head of the company decided to shut us down, move development to San Jose, and fire all of us (well, we weren’t fired, per say… we were offered laughable cost of living increases they wanted us to turn down).

So my boss’s boss, Jeff Lubetkin, who’d been with Expedia since before the start, an old Microsoft hand who’d gone through the spin off, the acquisition, the whole thing, he took his list of twenty people and found them other jobs at Expedia.

Even when there weren’t jobs. Jeff didn’t look at the list of open headcount and match people. He knew the company and all the people in it so well he went to individual managers and hand-sold us, one by one. He convinced people who didn’t have open heads that not only did they need someone but hadn’t realized it yet, but that he had the perfect person for the job. And because they trusted him, they made things happen. Positions shifted, reqs closed in one place to open in another… the company shifted.

And then when it was all done, they didn’t have a place for him, and he was laid off.

Jeff found me a job with Kristina Miller, dong deep backend work and eventually building Expedia’s cryptography system. I used to say that I became twice the PM on joining Expedia and working on Luxtech, and I think I easily did that again working for Kristina. When she took another job, I followed, and she was promoted, and again, but even while not working for her directly I felt sure there was noone at work as smart, dedicated to her people, loyal to the company, and just good.

This week Expedia laid her off for no earthly reason.

I’m a pretty cynical guy, with low expectations for groups of people, but even I can’t fathom how these things happen. How do people who inspire absolute, unflinching loyalty from people like me get tossed aside? Why tear out your own heart and drop it in the garbage? If these are the people who can call nearly anyone in your company, say “I need you to quit your job and show up at 5th and Union next Monday” and have people immediately get up and hand in their resignations, don’t you put them in charge?

Apparently not.

Speaking of which

The 2008 Nebula Preliminary Nominees are up, and Asimov’s put their nominees up online, so you can go read them. Right now!

Best Novelette
– James Alan Gardner:The Ray-Gun: A Love Story
– Lisa Goldstein:Dark Rooms
– Ted Kosmatka:The Prophet of Flores

Best Short Story
– Michael Cassutt:Skull Valley
– Kij Johnson:26 Monkeys, Also the Abyss
– James Patrick Kelly:Don’t Stop
– And my favorite, James Van Pelt:How Music Begins

My new favorite job listing

$$$ TOYOTA CAR/TRUCK/AUTO SALES $$$

DON’T LET THE PRESS FOOL YOU !!!WE HAVE MORE CUSTOMERS THAN WE CAN HANDLE! WE PAY UP TO 35% COMMISSION. $1800 MONTHLY CONDITIONAL GUARANTEE . SEVERAL OF OUR PEOPLE MAKE SIX FIGURE INCOMES!!! MINIMUM GUARANTEE. BILENGUAL A PLUS. IF YOU CAN THINK ON YOUR FEET AND COMMUNICATE WELL, WE CAN TEACH YOU HOW TO MAKE BIG $. CALL NOW! OUR CURRENT SUCCESS STORIES INCLUDE BARTENDERS, FOOD SERVERS, SHOE SALESPEOPLE AND RETAIL/NORDSTROM/MACYS SALESPEOPLE. LET US HELP YOU MAKE REAL MONEY!

Big start, the all caps is enthusiastic, they clearly do intend to shout… I like that if you’re bilingual it’s a plus, and they don’t spell bilingual right… the particularly weird thing to me, anyway, is that they’re disclosing what a salesperson’s commission makes, when generally car dealers want to cloak the whole thing in mystery.

1. Medical, Dental, Vision benefits available.
2. 401K retirement program.
3. Manufacturer bonus $$$ on various models.
4. Liberal “spiff” and demo allowance programs.

If you’re like me, you skidded to a stop right there. Really? They have a liberal spliff program and they allow you to drive cars? And there’s a minimum guaranteed income? How can this job even come up on Craigslist? It should be like the Vegas jobs where people bribe the hiring manager.

And then I realized “ooooooooh, spiff, like on-the-spot cash bonuses for sales. Right. Of course.

5. Top producers receive free trips to Hawaii, Las Vegas, etc.
6. Access to Seahawks and Mariners tickets.
7. Paid Vacation.

Nice.

DON’T WAIT! CALL NOW!

Aaaaah! Don’t startle me like that! I thought we’d settled down to talk like reasonable people!

EOE/Drug-Free Workplace

That line’s a lot funnier if you still think they’re handing out joints.

This is only going to get cooler

When I was fairly young and impressionable, I think I lived through a time that was staggeringly good for technophiles. We went from Pong to Atari 2600s to Super Nintendos by the time I was in college. Computer games went from things I had to type in line by line out of books or the backs of magazines — and this seemed entirely reasonable — to Star Control 2, available at retail stores boxed, playable on a desktop PC.

Right now, because I have issues with work-life boundaries, I’m using VPN and remote desktop to get into my box at work on a connection that’s 2,500 times faster than the first modem I ever used. I have a complete and functional desktop that belongs to a docked laptop, a not-that-super Dell model that’s still a couple pounds and incomprehensibly more powerful than the first PC I used (or every computer I ever used until I touched mainframes at college) — and from there remoting again into a lab server to do some troubleshooting, and that lab server isn’t actually a piece of hardware at all, it’s all virtualized… my mind swims just thinking about it.

I’ve always had faith in this march of progress. My dad once told me to always buy the largest storage devices I could, because “mass storage is never massive enough”. I started using 8″ floppy drives that held 80k if I remember, and today I carry a 16GB USB key and I can buy terabyte (well, not reaaaallly) hard drives for under a hundred dollars.

Of course I’m writing science fiction. I don’t know how I couldn’t.

15 rewrites to get 846 words back

I re-wrote one story 15 times this weekend, starting with trying to shorten it up substantially while pounding a piece of it into shape, torturing my main character brutally, and generally working my butt off.

Here’s what happened:

Unsellable story rewrites

Alternately, that’s about 40 words pulled out an hour over the weekend.