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The eagle in my backyard.

I saw a bald eagle in my backyard this morning. I was working on my bike, and heard this weird sound — more like a scream than anything. I looked up into the trees to see an enormous white headed bird, and I felt a shock spread from the back of my head as I recognized it from hanging around in Juneau, where bald eagles are much more common.

Then came the crows, yelling after the eagle, trying to take a beak at it. The eagle moved, the crows pursued, a noisy angry mob. The eagle took off, soaring in long, lazy circles way above while the crows gathered in the tops of the trees, calling to each other and complaining.

I stood in the grass, my bike on the stand with pedals off, 15mm wrench in hand, and laughed.

Hamfisted metaphor time: I’ve been having problems putting up with the overhead at USSM, specifically the amount of crap heaped on us as authors. In particular, I’ve lately been told that I “need to take my meds” before writing about baseball, I’m a vile person, blah blah blah, and then today I got a snitty letter from a dude who pointed out a grammar error. His email started off “how about paying a little attention to grammar?”

I have, within arms reach as I type this, a good dictionary, thesaurus, Strunk and White, a set of style guides, a slang dictionary, and a book on modern American usage. I sometimes read them for fun. Saying I don’t pay attention to this stuff because I made one stupid error is exactly the kind of constant sniping that makes me want to stop doing things in front of an audience.

I went out for a ride, and burned around Lake Sammamish. On the east side — saw the eagle again (I assume it was the same one — having seen one so rarely here and knowning it took off in that direction from my house). This time it was chilling in a tree, all by itself, and there were no crows anywhere near it.

develop pulverizing hand power!

(found in the sidebar of an old article I just read)

Response card, which might be 2″ by 2.5″‘ reads

Yes, I want to start building powerful, granite-hard hands, wrist, and forearms.

I enclose check (or money order) for just $9.95.

Send to me immediately the KARATOK Grip Developer to try in my own home. If not delighted, I may return the KARATOK in 10 days for full refund. No questions asked.

Margrace Corp, makers of the KARATOK Grip Developer, appears to be gone. Hopefully the centuries-old Japanese karate-training techniques it was based on have not been lost.

Psychonauts

It’s great. I don’t even like platformers and I love this game. It’s getting great reviews so I’ll skip that.

I’ve been following this game’s long development for years, because of two people: Tim Schafer, who’s been involved with some other great titles (Full Throttle in particular, one of the greatest games ever, but also Grim Fandango, which was awesome, and Day of the Tentacle) and who you may know, and Erik Wolpaw, who you probably don’t (but along with Greg Kasavin, writes the best game reviews on Gamespot and more importantly wrote Old Man Murray which has gone years without being updated and is still funny).

The thing that’s so great about Psychonauts is that it’s got a sense of humor, like the other Schafer games. It’s legitimately funny: the setting’s funny, the dialogue is funny, there are weird sight gags , satire of computer games, and adult humor.

The relationship between increased development costs and creativity’s been discussed elsewhere, but essentially the more money it costs to push out a game, the safer it is. I have enormous respect for companies that continue to do innovative and crazy things with their games (like Nintendo) even if I don’t play them, and for games like Psychonauts that display such care and attention in every detail that even when I’m frustrated with a particular puzzle or level, I can appreciate the effort and creativity they poured into it.

So go check it out. Support this kind of work.

Lies I’ve been told by recorded voices while on hold today

  • We’re currently experiencing unusually high call volumes
  • We appreciate your patience
  • We’re doing everything we can to answer your call promptly
  • Your call is very important to us
  • Someone will be with you momentarily
  • An agent will be with you shortly

I wonder, while listenting to the loop again, if the people who record these short lies think about this as they’re recording them. “My voice will be played over and over saying things that are clearly not true, angering countless callers… maybe I should reconsider this job?”

Do they ever have personal trust issues? “Baby… you know I was only out playing poker with the guys.” “You told me I was a valued customer and my call would be answered quickly too, you bastard!”

Xbox = ass

How in the world did Microsoft expect to take over the console world with something of such low production quality?

I bought an Xbox when Halo 2 came out. I played Halo 2, was hugely disppointed, and then I didn’t do anything with my box. I probably got maybe 30, 40 hours of play out of it including multiplayer, then it sat, perfectly level, boxed back up, for a couple months before I got a couple of other games. Cranked back up, it ran for maybe 30m before dying, and now on boot it tells me to go call customer service (two codes depending on its mood: 7, HD toast, 12, DVD toast). And of course it’s out of warranty now, since I bought it back in November. Wheeeeeeeeeeeee.

So that’s $150 + accessories for 40h of light use before it melted down. I guess storage in a room-temperature environment for those months when it didn’t have games I could play caused it to grow petulent. And now what am I going to do — spend another $150 on a box that’s pretty close to the end of its lifetime in order to play a couple of games? This is exactly the kind of pointless money-flushing I left PC gaming to get away from.

The only good part is that since my warranty had expired anyway, I cracked it open to check the cable connections (looked good, which in a way is unfortunate) and got to look around the innards. Didn’t make me feel any better about the money, though. And tomorrow, Jade Empire and Psychonauts arrive, and I have no console to play them on.

My Playstations have worked without complaint for years, my Dreamcast still cranks on to play Skies of Arcadia (awesome!). Or, to put this another way: my average console lifespan to Xbox lifespan ratio is easily 100:1. I’m sooooo not buying the next generation Xbox.

Privacy notifications

Companies should notify a customer who they intend to send personal information to. For instance, when you complete a transaction with an online travel company, when you submit payment (or at the terms and conditions page, or wherever in the payment path) they should clearly state:

Your personal information will be shared with
– A global booking engine (your airline ticket)
– The hotel
– The car rental company

As part of the booking process.

0 I understand and agree to having my information shared
0 I do not agree and wish to abandon this

And so on. No company should be able to pass on your personal information without your specific permission. If companies want to sell you out to partners or as part of a mailing list (as Performance Bike did to me), you should be able to opt-out of those, or at least be able to decline the transaction at that point:

Your order information will be shared with
– UPS (shipping)
– Mailomatic Scummasters (junk email)

0 I agree
0 I do not agree

There could be reasonable standards on presentation: readable type, and so on. For real-space transactions, retailers should have to ask your permission specifically for each place they want to pass your info on to.

If you do not specifically consent to information distribution, it would be forbidden (so, for instance, UPS couldn’t sell your information to Mailomatic Scummasters).

Companies that violate this by sending your information where it’s not supposed to go should not only have to pay massive crippling fines, but pay *you*.

This is a case where the interests of the public and of corporations are directly opposed, and the people should win. The use of personal data for profit without disclosure is a deceptive business practice and where government regulation is both justified and beneficial.

China and gravity

I’ve always been a weird political bird, in that I’m a rabid environmentalist and equally rabid privacy/free-speech advocate. At the same time, I’m also the kind of guy who has skirted being fired over being vocal and active in oppostition to things my company did (this was in the AT&T Wireless days) that I thought weren’t cool.

I may soon end up doing a lot of work in and around China as part of my job, and I didn’t know what to do about it.

Then my friend Joel, who is smart, made a very short argument:
In Cuba, where we’ve had harsh sanctions in place forever, they are no more free and no more prosperous than they were when we started. In China, while there’s internet filtering and so forth, individuals have a lot more freedom than they did at the same point in time: freedom of individual movement, for instance, is much greater.

Still, it’s a weird feeling to have to face working in an environment where oppression and corruption are as pervasive as gravity.

My other problem is that I have two other, larger conflicting views:

I believe that there’s no reason that someone just like me but born in China should make some small percentage of my salary, and not enjoy the freedom I do. I fear the global leveling that could make all of us equally prosperous, because I have mortgage payments to make, but I also believe that trade can create wealth, and so on.

On the other side, though, I fear that free trade doesn’t get to the people. I may buy a graphics card for my PC that’s made in China, but if that money disappears entirely into the pockets of industrialists and officials who keep working conditions terrible, that doesn’t help anything. If the fabricators are all in cahoots, an industry boom doesn’t help the workers.

Or, to put all of my concerns together: does modern technology and process make it possible to keep the average person in the third world in some early Industrial Revolution serfdom forever? Does it matter what I do at all?

Hermione the Hero

Something I’ve been considering while I wait for the next Potter book and hope it’s not as lame as the last couple. Hire an editor, Scholastic.

Hermione versus Harry
DMZ, 2005

Hermione should be the hero of the Harry Potter books. That she is not reveals a great deal about our disappointing dependence on certain kinds of myths.

Harry is a natural wizard. He’s the undiscovered future king, born into greatness. He’s the almost super-human savior. His talent and force of will overcome obstacles to his ascent, in spite of his erratic work habits and age-appropriate slacking. He’s prone to failure, stupid action, and occasional and inspiring brilliance. Rules are frequently ignored or broken if they stand between him and whatever he’s stomping off to do that minute.

Hermione is not born into greatness. She’s a fine wizard, it can’t be denied, but these are the products of dutiful study and practice. Her parents were not wizards of reknown, or wizards at all. She is entirely self-made. She faces discrimination, sometimes with patience and reserve and sometimes confronting it directly. She is frequently the master plotter and architect. Harry and Ron have petty fights and act stupid, Hermione is generally mature and often the diplomat. She’s capable of mature, more adult relationships where Harry and Ron might ignore their dates at the dance like normal boys.

Picking between the two of them for a particular task, the choice seems simple:
– For a normal or even a hard task, with preparation time, you’d pick Hermione. She’s steady and reliable. She’s the basketball player who can shoot almost every free throw. Harry’s going to have much less success with that task. He may not know the right spell, he may have skipped out on preparation to practice Quidditch, and there’s a good possibility he didn’t get much sleep the night before because he was off causing trouble.

– For a task of extraordinary difficulty, you’d pick Harry. Faced with the nearly impossible, there’s a chance he might pull it off through talent, will, and luck.

This is ridiculous. On further consideration, you pick Hermione for both. Hermione is likely to know and be able to immediately recall relevant information for any task in front of her, and her wide knowledge of tricks offers her more ways out of the problem. Given her ability to reliably cast those spells, you then want her there to carry it off.

Say an asteroid’s going to hit Hogwarts and only Harry and Hermione are available. Who do you want up on the tower? Harry’s going to try something crazy, like blowing up the asteroid or repelling it, possibly showering the planet in asteroid shards or deflecting the asteroid into the moon and causing crazy tides for the rest of time.

Hermione’s going to come up with some elegant solution like changing the asteroid into something less dense that’s easily movable, or charming it to pass through the Earth as ghost matter, and once she’s come up with it, everyone’s saved, because she’ll pull off the spell.

Why is the initial instinct to put Harry up there, then?

The first is that Hermione’s portrayed as a stickler for rules, that her book knowledge comes with an undue respect for the law. She frequently serves as an artificial voice of concern (“So I suppose you think that’s a reward for breaking the rules?”) to add conflict to scenes and then stomp off. It’s an unsympathetic portrayal. Hermione’s just been introduced to wizarding. She probably fears that this great world she’s been shown, where her talent shines, can be taken away as easily as it was given to her. Harry’s reckless and frequently rebuked for putting himself and others in danger, and by rights should have been tossed out already. But he’s not, because he’s Harry, and he’s special.

When it comes time to do things like “deflect the asteroid”, we don’t always want that person up there. We’re weak, and we want someone strong to protect us, and in many ways we don’t care about the consequences. A sufficently large end justifies all means. This runs through stories forever. A detective, pushed too far, hits back! Take the super-popular 24 as a great example of this. The main character is a law-breaking, torturing killer who accomplishes the impossible.

We want someone to say “No, you can’t try to blow up that asteroid!” and Harry to run past them with a smart quip and evade whoever else is trying to stop them, because we know that’s the kind of guy he is. You don’t want someone who might fret about possible life forms on the asteroid and start a comic-relief organization with a funny acronymn.

This argument fails. Hermione, when she is convinced that something must be done, breaks the rules and expresses little regret about it. When she knows she must help, she does, and does so effectively. In weighing the possible consequences of her actions, she shows a level head in evaluating the law against what may be accomplished outside it. That’s far more valuable than not caring about the effects.

Say the earth-saving charm, whatever it is, requires the caster to at the same time kill someone close to them. Do you still choose Harry, who you’ll know will probably be freaked out and sad and might then get really angry and attempt the task without offing Ron?

Or do you now pick Hermione, who would be shocked and freak out and look for an alternative and then, when none could be found, would off Ron (possibly while crying) and then perform the spell perfectly?

In one of those two choices, Hermione goes through a lot of pain and suffering that her former future husband had to bite it, but she’ll read some self-help books and get some counseling and she’ll be fine. Maybe she gets a taste for it, bumps off Ginny to make it a matched set, and marries Harry herself.

In the other, Hermione doesn’t because she’s dead and so is everyone else because Harry botched the casting.

That’s not the big reason our instinct is to pick Harry, though.

It’s because that’s what Hermione would tell us to do.

“Books! And cleverness! There are more important things — friendship and bravery and — oh Harry — be careful!”

This is by far the worst moment in any of the books. It doesn’t stick out immeidately — at the time, it seems dramatic and fitting that Harry should be sent on to the final confrontation while Hermione stays behind. But more than anything else, it exists because Hermione is the sidekick and Harry is the hero, so Hermione must defer to him.

Self-made defers to the inherited.
Hard work defers to the lazy.
Intelligence defers to instinct.

Because the hero of the books is Harry, the one who can pull the sword from the stone, he is in the final confrontations. Hermione gets credited with the assist because she doesn’t charge in, and she doesn’t charge in because she has to say things like that in order to get Harry in by himself.

Even if Hemione was not the character chosen to have her name in the title, she is the most interesting and good character the series offers us. She strives to make the most of her talents but doubts. She is afraid but courageous. She is powerful and strives to be charitable. She is ambitious in the service of good. She is a loyal and steady friend in spite of challenges.

Harry offers us a story-time view of royalty, and Hermione is the modern self-made woman. Harry may appeal to traditions of myth, it is Hermione that is the better hero.

Note to a World of Warcraft hostage

Dear hostage,

Right now, you’re back in your small, locked cage, wondering how long it will be before I come back for another attempt to win you your freedom. You may be thinking back on my previous tries, all valiant brave acts that ended in defeat, and your heart may warm to know that my determination to liberate you won’t be stopped by temporary setbacks or heartbreaking failure.

You are wrong. There will be no more rescues by me, not because I am not brave, or able. No, I have decided that you are better off dead, or at least, in the cage supervised by your captors.

A wave of relief washed over me as I reached this decision, and more than ever, I know that I am right. You are not worth it — the world is better off without you. You may wonder why I have reached this conclusions, and it only right that I owe you an explanation.

You are the worst kind of teammate. Sneaking away from your captors, heavily outnumbered, you can’t seem to resist the temptation to randomly rush off and pick fights with them, even as I’m trying to carefully clear the way in front of you. You attract the attention of groups as if you were some kind of aspiring idol and not a refuge from their imprisonment. You cannot be controlled or counted on to act rationally or even in a consistent, stupid manner that I might compensate for.

I suspect you were not innocently captured, as you would have me believe. I have begun to see that your captors have a point. Most likely, you were wandering around and blundered into their camp, at which point you decided to go for a stroll, attacking them at random until they subdued you and threw you in a cage, as much for your own safety as theirs.

I agree with them. I will find other things to do. I am sure in time there will be other heroes who are both stubborn and stupid, possibly traveling in groups, who will have the time and dullness of wit required to try and over again to help you.

Yours sincerely,

Jurgen