Large scale buyer’s regret

I feel good about my decision to quit. This week I’ve been in a situation where I felt, briefly, like I have most of the last six or so months – a mixture of anger over a situation, dread over the consequences of pointlessly fighting it again, resignation – and when I realized that I didn’t need to argue it, didn’t even need to get worked up, all the tension left me.

I’m a little scared, obviously, that I’m stepping out on my job without having another lined up, and that I’m walking away from what used to be the best job I ever had, but I’ve been in good spirits all week, like I was when I was happy at work, and it’s felt really good.

I don’t know what I’ll do if I decide to take another IT job in a couple months, especially how I ensure that I end up somewhere I can be happy for a long time, but I actually wish I’d done this a long time ago, when it was clear that things were bad and weren’t going to get better for the forseeable future.